Monday, February 12, 2007
Know The Ledge
Ever since I caught wind of Eric B and Rakim's 1993 anthem, it secretly became my rallying call...pushing me, daring me to realize my own truths internally, and turn them into something tangible. What have I learned from it?
I'm speaking from a man's perspective of course, but I've learned that it's okay to admit my fears, my resistance, and importantly...admit where my 'edge' is. I don't know if this goes for all persons, but it's true for me and ,I believe, guys in general that everyone has their limit, their capacity to grow, and in turn their own destiny.
What's not okay is for any one man to lie to himself, or others about his real place. He shouldn't pretend to be more enlightened than he is, nor should he stop short of being on his real edge. The more a man is true and real to himself and his capacity, the more valuable he is as good company. He can be trusted to be authentic and fully present. Where his true edge lies, is less important than where he's truly at with respect to his edge, rather than being lazy or deluded.
Posted by Heavy Jumbo at 3:37 PM
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Saturday, February 10, 2007
Your Woman Isn't Going To Get Any Easier
Okay guys (and/or girls that love girls: I'm actually referring to the masculine entity of those in relationships), I'm going to lay down the gauntlet here and perhaps cause a bit of polarity...or maybe just finally shed some light.
A woman often seems to test her man's capacity to remain like a rock in his truth and purpose. She'll test him to feel the depth of his love, and to know he is trustable. Her tests may look like complaining, challenging him, changing her mind, doubting him, distracting him, or even undermining his purpose directly or indirectly.
It is difficult, but men shouldn't think his woman's testing is going to end nor that his life will get easier. Instead, he should learn to appreciate that she does these things to feel his strength, his integrity, and his openness. Her desire is to experience her man's deepest truth, and his deepest love. As he grows, so will her testing. It's a wicked catch-22, but if you keep the intent of all of this at the forefront of your mind, who knows, eh?
Posted by Heavy Jumbo at 10:45 AM
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Track Record
So I'm in Ensenada on a day trip stop from the booze cruise I'm on with about 10 of my coworkers. Weird place to have an epiphany, I know, but hey, just because you travel hundreds, maybe thousands of miles, to answer Southwest Airlines' "wanna get away?", doesn't mean your worries don't travel with you. Mine follow me like a bad, pungent fart (you know the kind I'm talking about, don't even front).
In any case, I'm in Mexico, with a fierce 96 hour buzz...my realer than real separation from my wife and impending divorce hits me, and I'm back (for a moment between shots), to thinking about the things I did right and the things I did wrong.
A man's track record doesn't mean anything to his woman. He can be perfect forever and a day, but the moment he becomes an a-hole, even for a minute, his girl will act as if he's always been one.
Women respond to the moment, the energy of that moment, and in that moment, all track records are off the table, and her man's past behavior, whether it is impeccable or not, becomes irrelevant to her being in the moment.
Men however, base a lot on history, track record, reputation, and because of that, they think their own track record should count for something....but to women, it just doesn't.
More often than not, I usually failed this part of the multiple choice test.
Posted by Heavy Jumbo at 2:00 PM
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Sunday, January 14, 2007
Hi, I'm the Nomad. Pleased to make your aquaintance....
Here's a little about me; my clothes usually don't match because I wear whatever's next in the drawer, and more than likely, I bought it on sale. Often seen with forehead grease and a sleeveless shirt (cuz I'm a tough-guy, punk-ass), you won't find me in the club (often), I don't have bottles full of bub, and I am definitely not the #1 Stunner, (even if you Mom tells you different).
Lately, I've been wandering the earth like Kwai Chang Caine physically, spiritually, and emotionally, and I'm here to share what I've found out makes sense to me now, as the life that I used to know was turned inside out, and upside down.
What I say here might make sense to you; it might meet with your approval; or not. But it will make you think....
So what I'm asking you for is your thoughts, your take....the kind of thoughts you have during that quiet period right before you lay down your head to sleep, and a sense of clarity (or controversy) gently blankets you...and your self-evident truths reveal themselves.
Posted by Heavy Jumbo at 3:03 PM
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