I could be bitter today, but I've been bitter every Tuesday for the last 3 months, so now I've decided that I'm going to post my

unBITTER TUESDAY LIST!

Things that I am unBITTER about:

1. I have my health.
2. I have a loving family.
3. I have a good group of friends.
4. The 49ers are in the playoffs.
5. The SF GIANTS made it to the World Series.
6. The GOLDEN STATE WARRIORS have won three in a row up to this date, including a win over the world champion Lakers.
7. I've gotten over a broken heart, and conquered the ghost of another broken heart.
8. I went to Cuba.
9. Being happy.
10. Screw the No @ss countdown. We'll worry about that next week.

[At Hillsdale Mall, which opened at the ungodly hour of 7am]

Another Christmas come and go, and now there's just 5 more days before 2002 is over. It's usually around this time of year when I ask myself, "What the hell did I do this year?" And usually I'll answer with, "I didn't do sh!t." But this year I think I have done a few things:

- Saved $$ to go to Cuba
- Went to Cuba
- Moved out of my parent's house [but it'll still be home no matter what]
- Mended a broken heart [RSD]
- Faced and conquered a ghost from the past [X #1]
- Shaved my head
- Visited one of my best friends in Vegas
- Collaborated with a friend on a possible music project
- Actually went boarding [3 times]

That's all I can think of so far. Not bad, but I still have a long list of stuff to do. Maybe I'll get it done, maybe not. Hope to see some of you guys at my house on the 28th.

Make Mine Music

~No Tations~

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
OR MERRY DECEMBER 25TH [for you non-Christmas celebrating people]

Making Mine Music

~No Tations~

[Friday night before Xmas @ Serramonte Center]

The mall has died down now and it's getting a wee bit lonely over on this side of the mall. Anyway, just checking in. I'll be at 330 Ritch tonite [working the door with Mango from 12-1230.]

Make Mine Music

~No Tations~

[BITTER TUESDAY]

1. Freakin 49ers...just can't seem to shake that monkey on their back known as the Green Bay Packers.
2. The Warriors lost again...are we beginning to sense a recurring theme here?
3. I misread my final assignment for my Chinese Culture class -- and thus turned my paper in a day late and -20%.
4. I had to buy a new shirt at Structure...and I hate buyin new clothes.
5. I have no $$ until Friday.
6. NO @ss yet. That's enough info for you.

YOU GUYS MISSED AN AWESOME CONCERT ON FRIDAY NIGHT!!!

The SFSU Chamber Singers had their end up the semester concert at Most Holy Redeemer Catholic Church on 18th and Diamond in the Castro last Friday. It was phenomenal. We started it out with some Renaissance pieces [in Latin] and then ended the first set with a joint Vivaldi/Bach Magnificat, which featured some virtuoso solos by some of our singers. I particularly liked the coloratura solo by one of our sopranos. But all the first half solos were cool. The only thing that sucked was standing there on the choir risers for about 15 minutes in shoes that hurt your feet. I could have sworn that if I didn't make sure I was breathing properly I might have passed out.
The second half consisted of more contemporary pieces, ending with a piece inspired by the famous architect Frank Lloyd Wright, an African American spiritual "Sweet Little Jesus Boy" [soloist Kristine Sinajon] and finally, our encore, "El Hambo" was in a made up language, an ode to the Swedish Chef from the Muppet Show. Despite the pouring rain, our audience was nice and big and gave us a nice ovation at the end. I hope some of you guys can make it in the spring -- you'd definitely be in for a treat!

You just gotta listen to "El Hambo"

Make Mine Music

~No Tations~

['I woke up early and there's no one in the mall' thoughts]

The SFSU University Chorus sang a concert last night at St. Thomas More church near SFSU. The church is a huge church where voices ring and ring almost forever. The concert was fantastic. In October, I didn't know if this choir was going to sound any good, but last night was the culmination of a semester's hard work. And it paid off too! We sang an African American spiritual "Aint-a-that Good News!" and in the rehearsal I actually whooped and hollered afterward, amusing everyone in the choir. Hey, I can't help it. Sometimes, the spirit just moves ya! I actually introduced myself to this girl in chorus. She was sorta just sitting by herself so I decided to work on the MAC skills. She didn't seem like she wanted to talk but then I started asking about Socal compared to Norcal and she started talking a bit more. If you don't practice every once in a while you lose it!

I woke up early today [well, early for me, that is]. My alarm went off at 730 and finally got out of bed at 8. The good thing about working close to home is that you can stay in bed till the last possible minute before jumping out to get ready. Since I'm at Serramonte, which is only 7 minutes away, that means I can stay in bed till 810, possibly 815. Anyway, I'm here at Serramonte until 5, then I have a dress rehearsal for my concert tomorrow. I figure most of you all who read this won't go, so I'll have the commentary about the concert for you on Saturday.

Make Mine Music

~No Tations~

Party with Notations

come to the first beatsrhymesnlife party. details on the evite!

Voodoo

BITTER TUESDAY

1. I lost again in Yahoo Fantasy Football. Now I'm 2 - 11.
2. My 49ers won, but still looked like crap most of the game. Yet, good teams find ways to win. Overall it wasn't pretty, but T.O.'s catches were.
3. The Warriors are hurting and about to play the Lakers in about 20 minutes.
4. I rented Malena to see the beautiful Monica Belucci, but it was the cut version that had the skin scenes toned down. DOH!
5. Yeah, the No @ss Countdown is still ticking. Shut up.

I should be bitter because I ran into my X on Friday but I'm not! Nyah nyah na nyah nyah, Ms. Arr Kay Oh. Time for you to grow up a little bit.
=P

Make Mine Music

~No Tations~

I saw my first girlfriend last night. We broke up in 1995, a total high school relationship thing. Funny thing is, my last relationship [circa 2000-2001] didn't seem all that much different. Both didn't want to have a BF but ended up having one. *Signal 1* that the relationship probably wasn't going to last!

Anyway, my point is:
So what is it with my X-Girlfriends loving my mom or something? I guess she's like the "motherly figure/big sister they never had" to them. It's so funny that they could absolutely talk with my mom and my dad for like two hours but have nothing to say to me. Am I a little more mature because I try to start a friendly conversation that ends up going only one way?

The scary thing is that there were a enough similarities between the two of them to make me think, "Am I falling into that trap where I only end up getting with same kind of girl?" Sort of like a milder case of the girl who keeps hooking up with alcoholics or the guy who always gets with a girl that's just a gold-digger. Except mine just toy with my heart for awhile and then leave?

Things that make you go "HHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!"

I bought another Nutcracker CD yesterday. I know, I bought one on Tuesday but it was missing the opening overture, which should not be missing.

And I get paid today too, but I'm still not doing shopping till at least the 20th.

I have a concert on Sunday, which, I think I emailed to most of the people who read this. So if you don't go at least leave me a message why.

*Hey Voodoo, since I know more people read my page, is it possible to give me a comments link? Thanks. =P Luv ya.*

It's flu season so please remember this word: OSCILLOCOCCINUM

It's a homeopathic medicine and you take it at the first sigh of fever, chills, body aches and pains. In short, if you feel the flu coming on. I took it on Tuesday and now it's Friday and I feel a ton better.

Yeah, yeah, it's just a shameless plug for some of you guys to come visit me at Great Earth Vitamins this Xmas Shopping Season. There was a No Tations watch below giving you my schedule and I'll have another one for next week. Today I'm at Hillsdale till 9pm and tomorrow I'll be at Serramonte till 10pm.

I had the worst sleep ever, in my life, last night.

I went home after work and just laid down in my bed for two hours reading and doing crossword puzzles so I can get tired enough to go to sleep. I don't know about you, but I'm not one of those people who can just lay down and go to sleep whenever. Not only must my body be tired, but my brain needs to be tired too. It took about two hours to get my brain into 'sleep' mode and then because I was feeling sick I think I must have tossed and turned all night long. I've never had that happen to me before. It's the worst.

So I woke up this morning feeling all fine and dandy. Then had to work at 145 and now I'm feeling crappy again. Go figure.

Went and bought three Xmas cds today: Take 6, Tchaikovsky's Nutcracker and a $4.99 one benefitting Toys for Tots. Spent $33. Yeesh. There goes trying to save up for presents.

*Now Playing in the CD player*
Waltz of the Flowers from Tchaikovsky's Nutcracker

Make Mine Music

~No Tations~

BITTER TUESDAY

1. I'M FEELING LIKE SH!T TODAY. Body/Head ache and just overall sluggish.
2. I'm feeling like crap and I'm working today as well.
3. The 49ers gave up 200 yards in the final quarter against Seattle. Definitely not [quoting Mango's 80s quiz] "One to Grow On."
4. I lost again in my fantasy league. Now my record is 2 - 11.
5. I'm feeling so crappy I'm not even gonna put my NO @SS countdown up today. But it's been a loooooooong time.

That's it. I'll talk to you all tomorrow or something.

Oh yeah, No Tations watch is as follows:
Tues: Serramonte 145 - 10
Wed: Serramonte 145 - 10
Thur: Hillsdale 1245 - 9
Fri: Hillsdale 1245 - 9
Sat: Serramonte 145 - 10

Come visit me at Great Earth Vitamins.

Make Mine Music

~No Tations~

I remember the first time I heard about AIDS. I was about 7 years old and it was making big headlines in the news. In this particular case, a nun had died and they showed her face on the television. I didn't know what AIDS was, but I know that from that moment on the word, disease, sickness was ingrained into my memory.

I didn't know what to make or think when Voodoo told me I had to post something on AIDS/HIV. Then as I went along through the day, thinking, and then reading the other BRL writers' posts, something struck me. I asked myself, "Do I have HIV/AIDS?"

And then reality struck me: I DON'T KNOW. I'VE NEVER BEEN TESTED.

I know I talk and vent about not getting any in awhile, but all of you out there who haven't had a test, go and get one. Universities should have a health center which provides certain care and services for students. I know SFSU has one. Talk to a person there. You may be able to get tested there. Or else they can point you in the direction of a community based health center which does tests.

I for one need to practice what I preach. I was in two monogamous relationships with people who did not have many partners [or so they told me] and intimacy did happen. I have been denying myself truth, and, though I'm pretty sure that I don't have it, you never can tell. I have putting off this test because, like Magic Johnson said when he had his press conference, "If I can contract HIV, then anyone can." Now I'm not one of those idiots out there who believe superstars are immune to 'regular people' diseases, but I have been going along and telling myself that I don't have it without being 100% sure. Which means that all this time I've been one of those idiots who think they can't catch it as well.

It's not the easiest subject to talk about but just think of how it would reach other friends who've never been tested. I am going to look into testing. For real. And when I do, you can be sure that not only will I write about it here, but I'll also tell other friends about it too, hoping that it motivates them to assure their own health. I'll let you guys know.

I haven't had anyone close to me die from AIDS/HIV, but I know many people have, so my prayers and thoughts go to you and your family/friends who you've lost in this lifetime to this horrible thing.

~No Tations~