Wedding

I'm getting married in 4 days, 0 hrs and 53 minutes. Nope I can't say I have cold feet, but I can feel my life changing. It isn't so much the switch from single to married. It's all the other changes around me. While most brides are fussing about what the wedding will be about, it's the post wedding changes that make me most apprehensive.
Nate and I are moving out... out of SF and out of his family home (which I've gotten used to and love) to suburbia. We will truly be on our own. We've met our new neighbors already and they're wonderful, but it's a different realm. They'll know us as "us" and not mooncake and nate.
I just had a thought today about how much I'll miss my parents and being at home and vegging and not be responsible for so many things like a mortgage and such. Even though I've had a mortgage before this and even though I've had to do my own laundry and clean my dishes, I can't abandon all of that and go home and hide out. I suppose previously I felt I could just ditch the job, ditch the apartment, ditch responsibility and go home and suffer no real consequences that really mattered to me. This is no longer an option.
I guess my point is that the realilty of permanance here in the bay area has finally hit me. Of course, one can't predict the future, but even in my 8-9 years here, I've never felt that this was permanently home. Now it is.
I almost want to tell my parents that I'm sorry for choosing to live so far away from them. I really am. I've always missed them, but never this way. I'm sure people cry weddings for all sorts of reasons, but this is what I'll be shedding a tear over.