The Baby Blog

i know that the page is down but i had to try and get this out now before i forget
4-month check-up
I finally changed AJ's pediatrician. Now I can understand him and he understands me! Baby checked out with a good bill of health. He now weighs a womping 16 pounds and 6 ounces. Now he is officially into Stage 3 diapers (if anyone is wondering what a good present would be!!!) The doctor said I could try and start introducing baby foods and cereal to diet. Well, we tried the cereal thing... and that was a failure. But I hear if you mix it with fruit or something it might work.

mommy failure
I highly underestimated my child the other day! I thought I could leave him on the couch to lie down by himself. up til now he never really moves or shift when he is laying down, so i though it was okay! I went to brush my teeth, and in a minute I heard him crying... when I came out, he was lying on the floor!! You can only imagine my frantic reaction. Called hubby on the phone and was ready to rush to the hospital. Th calmer half told me that he should be okay if he stopped crying, (which he did after I picked him up!).

Although things seem okay, I can't help but continue to feel guilty, and still question if he is okay. My sister-in-law (nurse) told me to observe his sleeping pattern to see if he is sleeping more, and if he seems spacy. Also to look out for clear liquid coming out of his nose or ear. However, he started another cold & cough so how do I determine the clear liquid as his regular cold "sipon" to the clear liquid! AGGGHHH... I can't take this anymore... I am waiting for hubby to just say, "Let's just take him to the Dr. to make sure" just to feel more comfortable. I feel so BAD!

Well, to make up for this I went to Toys 'r Us and bought him a toy for his car seat/carrier. I think I am going back again to buy more stuff for his closet (the extra rod that forms a second tier) for hanging clothes, or the cubby holes. what do you think?

Where is HUBBY?
just in case your are wondering... my dear husband has forgotten his password/username to get into the blogger. which is why you are only hearing from me. but don't worry hopefully ninang voodoo will be able to help us out!

Hey Voodoo Babies, and other visitors to the Lovely Voodoo Land. I regret to inform you that beatsrhymesnlife will be down for the next five days. Please check back with us on Wednesday.

Thanks, and yes, we'll miss you too.

Voodoo

WE DID IT!!! This family o' fun has a new ride... thanks to my in-laws (moocho thanks!!) we were able to drive home a brand new 2003 Toyota Matrix! Silver, black interior, 6-CD changer, automatic, chrome dashboard thingies, red back lights for the dash, and sunroof! Let me tell... i have had my doubts whether or not this was going to happen..but boy was it a good feeling to smell that new car smell, knowing that you are the one taking it home. It drives nice, and i feel a little bit higher like i am in a van, but don't have that "family car" sense to the whole experience! Then it rained yesterday, so my car is now dirty on the outside! then it's supposed to rain again this weekend... what a bummer! Anyways, taking AJ in and out of the car is a piece of cake! I am not straining anymore to ease him through john's 2-door car!

I joined another gym over the weekend... it's a smaller gym than 24, so i don't feel as intimidated when i go. it's closer to home, and the owner seems to know everyone who signs up there. so, to get my money's worth i started my first official workout---CARDIO BOXING! okay, i know it has been a while since i officially did any exercise.. but geez.. could i have been any more tired. This class kicked my butt! By the time it came down to the kick and jab combos my kicks weren't even knee high! Then the abs workout...OUCH! i can barely do 5 sit-ups!

So, even though I felt like a failure that day... I did feel more energetic throughout the day! unfortunately, at this time i am still trying to work out my schedule for the rest of the week, but monday mornings you will find me huffing and puffing in the back of my CARDIO BOXING class!

Despite the tragic events in my family this past weekend...this family o' fun also had to attend to our social calendar. I think we believe in torturing ourselves with major commutes because we started our Saturday at home, then out to Pacifica, then trekked, thru IKEA traffic, back to Hercules, and finally Vallejo! Believe it or not I think the car rides really soothe our son because he managed to sleep through all the trips.

In Hercules we attended a baby shower for our dear friends (lets call them LMA ---it's just their initials, okay!) who are expecting their first child! Not having seen her for awhile I was really shocked to see how much she has grown. My bet is that they are having a girl --AJ's prom date! and within the next two weeks (she already passed that mucus plug!) My next observation was...Where are all the kids at?!" Everywhere you looked there was kid. It was quite weird knowing that even john and i are in that group of "young, fun, and hip parents"

I wish LMA a smooth and faster delivery, compared to mine at least! I also hope they enjoy our gift. Okay it was sort of a hand me down, but never used because we received it as a gift and it ended up being a triplicate!

Well, we left that party and went for round two where we saw some of the same guests, mainly o.g. dance members, at a surprise party. only it wasn't much of a surprise, but there was really good sushi! the most awkward was seeing john's ex-girlfriend (the only true testament to my label as "man-stealer"). I guess it is still a pretty fresh memory that may never go away, but I know we will always run into each other, considering we have the same friends. So who felt the most awkward?....who knows! All I know is that John and I are very happy, and have every intention of happily ever after!

Speaking of which... i did the "ring test" to predict the number of kids i will have, gender, and order those kids will be born. So far it is correct with my first being a boy. Unfortunately, our second is predicted to be another boy! I have two years to consult the Chinese calendar to see when John and I will most likely have a girl...and make the girl vibes strong. You don't think it will just make my boy gay, do you?! Don't worry... it won't happen for another two years!

Last but not least... we test drove the new Toyota Matrix yesterday. I think we have hit a jackpot! The ride is smooth. More affordable considering I don't work much. Lots of room in the back --- leg room, okay! It's a four door. Enough trunk space to fit the stroller and some bags. Back seat goes down to fit the Balikbayan boxes. It is what i call a "confused" car: built to handle like an SUV, convenience/size of a wagon, but compact enought to be like a car. And if i have my way, it will be an automatic! Our plan is to shop for one this saturday. Unfortunately there is limited stock so if we do buy, we won't be able to ride up in it for awhile. We would like to get a deep silver, automatic, and with a sunroof. Keep your fingers crossed!!! I just may have a new ride soon, and Blue will get her rest!

Can i take a detour from the baby thing right now and just kinda blog away on something that has just affected my family. two days ago i received a phone call informing me that one of my cousins (actually, a very,very close friend of the family & connected by marriage) had committed suicide. i was in shock for the rest of the night. Everyone knew she had some problems, already seeing the head doc, and has tried this once before. but to actually have it happen....

There is a possibility that she was dead for three days. Her work had called one of my aunts to check up on her as to why she has not come to work. My uncle brought police with him to break into her condo. And that's when they found her. Her place was a mess, as if she had gone on a binge of hysteria before. I couldn't help but cry in my sleep, and when i see my husband and baby. I cry because I can only imagine how it must feel to be that desperate, lonely, or hurt. Her family had all the money and material things a person could only dream of. Last night I told my baby that I will always love him no matter what. He can never disappoint me as long as I know he is happy with himself. I told my husband that we may struggle month to month to make ends meet, but I will always be there for him and the baby to provide the most priceless thing in life ----LOVE.

You also can't help but feel mad or angry. Mad at her for doing this. Mad at yourself for not reaching out more, or seeing the "signs" of what she was thinking. Mad that you were not there to stop it. Then I remember the past when two of my other cousins had attempted to commit suicide but were not successful... Thank God! But I couldn't help but wonder if they still think about it as well. Now all i can think about is what can i do to help anyone else in family to prevent them from even trying. And when you have a big family like mine... you feel like you need super human powers, and you are trying to save the world. But i guess you have to look at it like this...ONE PERSON AT A TIME.

So to all of you out there reading this... please tell those you care about that you love them. Don't wait until tomorrow...something just might happen to take that chance away. Also, if you ever feel like suicide is your answer to all your problems and pain...THINK AGAIN. To all my friends and family that are reading this...I LOVE YOU, and I will be there for you if you ever need anything...

THANKS for listening... you will see another baby update very soon.
----This blog has been dedicated to the memory of "Gigi"