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Saturday, July 31, 2004
LAND OF AQUATIC BEASTS posted on 7/31/2004 10:19:37 PM by agentCB
ON A MISSION posted on 7/24/2004 09:58:27 AM by agentCB
HOT AS FUCK posted on 7/21/2004 06:11:20 PM by agentCB
THE MORNING TRAIN posted on 7/19/2004 01:40:47 AM by agentCB
FIRE posted on 7/13/2004 10:55:57 PM by agentCB
LET IT BURN... posted on 7/13/2004 12:45:55 AM by agentCB
NOW WHAT... posted on 7/12/2004 09:59:42 AM by agentCB
GRINDIN' IT OUT posted on 7/10/2004 12:18:34 AM by agentCB
hit up marine world for the 3rd annual kababayan fest. something about fish and filipinos made it an innate experience. xle started it off with a rousing rendition of the philippine national anthem. immij held it down with a live band. one voice rocked it and rex killed it and sent everyone home.
he was even funny to me.
i thought i heard all his jokes, but he had a few ones i didn't hear yet. that fool is funny just when he was talkin to the audience. i wish he would let loose like that more and not rely on his written material all the time.
i went with my auntie, younger cousins and older cousins. we dont kick it often outside of holidays so it was a nice time. i learned that they don't really get into the filipino stuff, so it was cool they came out as well.
lil cousins got me to go on a few rides. fuckin rides gave me nausea. i'm gettin' old. i even watched the whale show with my auntie and cousin. fuckin yakka and vigga must have kicked the fish bucket because shouka was the new main attraction. i often wonder what the whale thinks of having to swim around and splash people. i think he must secretly hate his job, but he gets 2 eat fish whenever he splashes the people that imprison him.
it's like allowing prisoners to spit on the warden daily.
it's not a substitute for freedom, but it's better than nothing. the whale looked happy though. was very intelligent and seemed to enjoy soaking tourists. what if all the animal shows were just about getting people wet. like what if the tiger show had tigers jumping in the water and splashing people. or better yet grabbing people from the audience and dragging them a la siegfried and roy style into the water. i'd pay to see that shit.
just random thoughts. i'm tired from walking around all fuckin day.
Saturday, July 24, 2004
went down 2 the bay this weekend for a a plethora of reasons. met up with the girl group i'm working with watch their rehearsal with their band and dancers. pretty cool, i will see the end result at the kababayan fest on sat.
on another day i met up with aya at a taqueria in the mission. i passed by my lola's old pad and discovered they painted her house blue. my grandma had the best angel food cake.
aya and i caught up over some authentic tacos and she took me 2 visit the infamous sf state ethnic studies and asian american studies departments. one of the west coast meccas for asian american and ethnic studies (the other being uc berkeley, and ucla).
i imagined what i would be like had i went 2 sf state. as i imagined all the possibilities because i realized my time machine was in the shop.
oddly enough, 2 of the visions i had of city life, included having kids already and another involving drugs. i also imagined myself big into music.
1 out of 3 is all i need.
as i was driving around killing time before i met up with torch, i had the urge 2 visit my lola in half moon bay. haven't been to her grave in a while. and something was telling me i needed 2 go there.
so i fight thru the traffic 2 skylawn or whatever the name is and i couldn't find her plot.
i remember my markers, the pine tree and the other big tree. no avail. saw my grandpa and asked him for help. i know where she is in respect to him so i was able 2 visualize the area. but for some reason i still couldnt find it.
last attempt, i look at a peculiar spot where a lot of dirt has been overturned by a ground hog or something. underneath it all is my lola's tombstone almost fully covered by mud.
i spent the next 1/2 hour cleaning it up with a plastic bag i had in the car and a bottle of water. i thought to myself, this is the reason why u wanted me 2 come here huh grandma.
so we talked, i let her know what i was doing lately and then how i broke up with the girl i was with the last time i came to visit.
and then i felt at peace.
with dirt in my fingernails, i hook up with torch for dinner at this one steak place downtown and libations at milk and dragon lounge respectively. peace out tells me later that i crossed a picketline in their personal boycott of dragon lounge.
im just an innocent bystander. but yeh, it was a nice day on friday.
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
ok so the title doesn't really leave much to the animation. but it's exactly how i feel right now. sac is having it's first triple digit reading of the season. it's been a mild summer so far.
i hear it's going to get hotter.
i actually don't mind the heat so much nowadays. it gets cool in the evenings so i'm ok. but man, when it stays hot at night, that's when i get pissed off.
i don't like 2 sleep when it's hot.
i'm tryin not to use the a/c because it costs a grip and i'm the only one in the house most of the time. it's almost as if it's a waste of energy.
anyway, i'm still at work waiting for my people 2 arrive so i can train them on the lovely principles of prevention.
they had better show up. i don't like waiting
Monday, July 19, 2004
I know you say it’s not about priority or a list of who’s special to you, but I don’t realize if you’re aware of all the intense emotions that come into play when I talk to you. I don’t want to fish for validation so I remain silent, wondering, hell even half hoping that something will come about. I'm not lookin to feel special here.
In reality, it’s just enough to talk to you. I don’t need any more than that.
But man, if you only knew how much I have to hold back. Sometimes it’s amazingly easy. At other times, I feel like I’m looking up at the glass ceiling. It’s not like I can tell you, in fact I think there’s nothing left that I haven’t told you already. I’m just impressed that I can separate myself from my emotions and still be truly happy for you.
It feels like going on your favorite roller coaster. You wait in line, the excitement builds, it’s finally your turn. You get strapped in and the behemoth takes off, careening here and there, tons of emotions hit you at the same time; fear, excitement, glee.
And all of the sudden it stops. It’s over.
You get off, look back and think “maybe I can sneak back on.” But you don’t want to get kicked out of the park for doing some stupid shit.
You can only get back in line and wait for your turn.
The funniest part about this is that you know there are other rides out there, just as fun. But this is the only one you want to ride on.
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
the more i watch the news and follow current events, the more i get upset with the way things are. i guess when you can't help but see the things i see, it makes u wonder if what you do really does make a difference.
to inspire change globally, we are encouraged 2 act locally. if only it was easier to see. i do recognize that i've contributed to some change in this world. looking at some of the PYC'ers i've worked with in the past, i can see that they're open-minded, inquisitive and aware.
it makes me smile inside.
i'm not tryin 2 raise protesters here. just activists, community people and basically people with a heightened awareness to the things in their environment.
this should be enough, but alas, seeing all the bs happening in the world, it is sometimes doesnt feel like enough. i don't know.
just tryin' to do my part.
about a month ago, the dvd burner (read: "superdrive" to all the mac heads) in my desktop g4 crapped out on me. i had bought a replacement last week and i wasn't able 2 get it working right until tonight. had to do all these updates and stuff.
luckily it all worked. but man it was tough tryin 2 figure out what to do. had 2 do lots of research to figure out what the hell the issue was, etc...
so i've burned a few dvd's of my graduation video but i just got an error after it wasted a dvd as my idvd program froze in teh middle of burning the 3rd disc in a row.
fuck.
hopefully it'll work. i want my 90 bucks worth for my 8x dvd burner. (actually, that's not that bad of a price, considering they used 2 cost more back in the day.
Monday, July 12, 2004
what will they think of next?
i swear to god, if they all of the sudden "catch" bin laden in november, i'm moving to vancouver. for real
Saturday, July 10, 2004
been hittin the studio lately. pretty hard at that. every thurs and friday. sometimes even sat. it feels good to use all that shit in my house and not just see it sit there and get pissed off.
one of the girl groups came in today. had a good session and got another potential single started. i kid u not. the stuff we're doin is pretty decent. who said filipino girl groups can't do a club banger, with content at that!
any way, i digress. the real story i wanted 2 share with ya'll was teh fact taht i left some laundry and underwear out on the couch all out in the open when the girls first came thru. they didn't see it but hell, embarassing at that.
don't worry they were clean and all, but still, i don't like showcasing my undergarments to the public. mental note for session planning: do your laundry and put the shit away way before people come through. fuck.
also took the girls 2 mikuni sushi up here in sac. it's the best place in town for the fusion type of sushi. u know, the type where there are big ass sushi with the tempura in the middle. it's not exactly traditional, but nonetheless i enjoy 'em as well. mikuni's started off as a small mom n pop joint in the folsom/carmichael area of sac. now it's expanded to 3 locations. i took them 2 the downtown, the newest and most bourgeois of the trio. food's the same, atmosphere is not.
after lunch, i took the ladies thru midtown showing off sacramento's more prominent areas. i don't know why i did. perhaps it's because there was traffic on the freeway. or maybe it's because i appreciate big houses. it's not like i wish i had a mansion. i think it was more of the whole being a "good sacramento spokesperson".
go figure.
if that were the case, my motto would be "sacramento: see, it ain't really that bad up here"
and with that pathetic quote i'm out.
