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Tuesday, February 19, 2002
LOVELY DAY posted on 2/19/2002 08:18:23 AM by agentCB
OOOOOH LOVE TO LOVE TO LOVE YA, LOVE YA posted on 2/15/2002 07:47:59 AM by agentCB
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR posted on 2/12/2002 11:22:20 PM by agentCB
WHEN I HEAR MUSIC... posted on 2/09/2002 07:38:32 AM by agentCB
THAT ILLA FIFTH DYNAMITE... posted on 2/08/2002 01:23:29 AM by agentCB
THESE SILLY LITTLE LOVE GAMES... posted on 2/06/2002 12:19:06 AM by agentCB
FIND A WAY posted on 2/03/2002 09:04:16 PM by agentCB
BUTTERFLIES posted on 2/01/2002 01:58:49 AM by agentCB
just got back from a weekend in SF. stayed at a bed and breakfast near union square. it was an extended valentine's day/excuse to get away weekend. kill 2 birds u know...
luvbug and i went to hella places... here's a list.
south beach
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1) esprit outlet (luvbug picked up some FMB's!!! haha)
union square
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2) golden gate hotel (where we stayed i give it 3 out of 4 barrellmen)
van ness
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3) AMC 1000 on van ness to watch the "royal tannenbaums"
4) mel's diner on van ness
union square
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6) macy's union square, niketown, rasputins
north beach
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7) steps of rome (for tiramisu, shown to me by voodoochild)
8) condor sports bar (for billiards with a couple from texas)
mission
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9) el faro's burritos on 20th and folsom
haight/ashbury
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10) amoeba and a shitload of other stores
HIGHLIGHTS
*got lost in south beach looking for the esprit outlet. (they're doing construction on 3rd street after the bridge... )agentCB bombed the bathroom.
*met captain nemo and humphrey. the resident pets at the golden gate hotel. humphrey took a liking to luvbug.
humphrey was a golden retriever, captain nemo was a black cat.
*met a couple from texas/LA at the condor who challenged us to a friendly game of 8 ball.
we split the series 1-1.
*walked 6 blocks from union square to north beach. had tiramisu at steps of rome, stopped by a chinese version of "nothing over 98 cents" on the way home. picked up a 3 dollar banig (yeah i know we coulda bargained, but i wasn't in the mood). didn't realize it was 6 at the time. hahah. massaged luvbug's feet after in the hotel.
*missed 20 mins of the "royal tannenbaums" it was the only thing playing at the time we got to the theatre. that and "rollerball" like i said... it was the only thing playing. good movie though...
*took a driving tour of nob hill and russian hill. were gonna go to fisherman's wharf, until i realized we forgot to turn our hotel keys in at checkout.
*driving tour of "el barrio" where my lola once lived (24th and florida) and my dad's old stomping grounds (bernal heights, el faro's etc.
*lunch at golden gate park, just outside of the haight. ate our el faro's in the grass. used the 3 dollar banig i got from chinatown.
all in all... it was a fun time...
Friday, February 15, 2002
(that's from that timbaland and magoo song btw...) anyway... my first valentine's day in over 4 years or so turned out pretty good. we had to do it a day in advance because i had class last night.. (BS)
i thought it was ironic that we were studying the "miracle of life" in class.
i watched spermies swim and eggies release... etc etc...
i think most people have seen that video... it was from NOVA, that PBS group... i don't know how they got all those camera shots... amazing...
believe me... seeing the inside of a man's dick made me squirm... how the hell did they get that camera in there!!!!!?!!?!??
owwwwwwwwwwww.
anyway... the valentine's celebration will spill over to this weekend when we head to the city. the romantic part of me isn't dead after all...
the last 4 valentine's days have been strong days for me... going to bed early and making lots of sad songs on the keyboard...
even though i did a good job of playing it off and being strong, deep down inside, it was hard to shake the ingrained customs and even i felt bad about being alone.
so how could i reinforce this commercialized holiday as soon as i had the chance you ask?
well, basically, i focused on what was important between the 2 of us and kept it real...
i caught myself looking at jewelry and victoria secret stuff (hehe) but all the advertisements and commercialization of love really turned me off.
i opted for roses (at an inflated price) and a homecooked dinner. salad, tempura shrimp, chicken teriyaki and for dessert, strawberries dipped in white chocolate.
i need to buy new plates... presentation is important in cooking and my plates were AITE... they weren't grand... next time... (if there is one... *crossing fingers*
so yeah... nothing too extravagant... i know luvbug was used to that from her ex's who would buy her anything. i'm sorry, but i'm a broke ass college student...
i just decided to show her love instead... she liked it much better anyway...
so take that, powers that be... uncommercialized love reigns!!!
Tuesday, February 12, 2002
ok so that's not a song title, but hey... so anyway... i celebrated the lunar new year with coworkers today. went to a buddhist temple.
very interesting. felt a little awkward being catholic and all, but they didn't seem to mind.
didn't want my fortune read, don't need to know what's ahead of me... i already know... hehe
Saturday, February 09, 2002
especially reggae music... i love to boogie. luvbug and i checked out jamaica house last night in sacto. my drum teacher's band "sugar boo boo" was playing so he told me to come by. they're pretty good. and my teacher is an animal on drums. helllllllla loud. but he's tight... esp. for a white dude! haha
i shoulda brought earplugs.
anyway... blufrums and ctlemonade joined us and it was a fun. i ordered oxtail stew, luvbug had the curry shrimp... we also had some jerk chicken wings. they were good, but hella spicy... didn't know there would be dancing there. so of course we had to show improve out there.
i think the highlight of the night was when the band played a reggae version of "let's stay together" by al green. that mess was tight.
ideas, ideas... hmmm...
Friday, February 08, 2002
ain't nuthin' like a roots track to bring it home. ok im frontin' like i know what they talkin bout. but hey, i know at least it's something about 5th street in illadephia.
anyway, i digress...
had human development tonight and i think so far my teacher is pretty cool. she's very aware of society's ills and is open to my questions about multiculturalism in class. (unlike another teacher who will remain nameless).
another cool thing is that she's openly critical about america. and she compared the country's development to that of an adolescent. i was hella feelin' that...
things are aight...
Wednesday, February 06, 2002
i think the best advice i recieved about love was from prof. shimakawa at UCD. she said that the best relationships are the ones that "just happen..."
the ones where u kinda realize... oh my god, what's happening. the ones where things fall together and things just work.
the timing is right. the feeling is mutual... there's no guessing... just kind of letting things happen.
i got that advice from her when i was telling her how i was working so hard with this one girl...
complaining about this or that...
it was the first time i looked relationships in that light. i realized that was the kind of love that i wanted...
something that "just happens." nothing preconcieved, thought about, second guessed.
but for me to see that meant that i had to have a huge attitude change. i didn't know girls had bitterness radar. i mean of course i have bitterness raydar... but i didnt' know people could see it in me as if it just followed me like a shadow...
so i just said fuggit... and let life take me wherever.
so now im with this girl and she's just like me and at the same time does everything exactly the opposite of what i would do. we dress differently, we have different tastes in music. we can't even go clubbing together... yes there are times where it's very hard. but somehow we stick it out.
i've stopped analyzing, thinking, contrasting and comparing. i just decided to go with it and live it day by day.
i don't want to think about marriage and all that other shit because i think it'll fuck things up. all these expectations i've gathered from various sources throughout life (tv, society, friends, family) fuck me up and keep me blind to the stuff i need... love.
i dunno if im going to marry this girl. i dunno how my kids are gonna be with her. i dunno if we can ever go clubbing together and have both of us be content with the music selection...
all i know is that she truly deeply cares about me. and that's enough for me to put all the other bullshit aside and focus on what it is that makes me truly care about her too.
is this love? shit i dunno... ill let u know when i get there...
Sunday, February 03, 2002
i've decided to use song titles from my bank of favorites to title my blogs from now on. call me geeky like that. oh well.
my training at work went well. we had a very stimulating conversation on generational issues among asian americans. people really didn't challenge me like i thought they would. then again we didn't get to the marginalized and oppression stuff yet.
basically, i'm afraid the first generation people are going to reject my stuff. but i have it all backed up and try to present it in an indirect way so as not to stir trouble... i don't want people to think i'm implying shit...
oh well...
JUST ANOTHER DAY
around the way... i drove home to hang out with a friend and see the folks. turns out my friend was too busy to hang out with me... the first night i had a headache and couldn't make it down on friday. on saturday, he/she (sorry, no identities revealed here) had to do some ish for work. i thought to myself "that's funny, u don't work til monday" so i felt somewhat rejected but hey, it's all good. some other time...
the cd will have to go to someone else i guess...
i don't feel the love right now... but don't get me wrong. i'm still down for her... i'm just not feelin the love right now that's all...
D.I.T.C.
i love going home to the bay. but i don't like this...
the traffic is some bullshit! at least with sac, there are hella side roads so u can kinda avoid it. and it's not that bad. but fuck vallejo to berkeley took 2x as long cuz of the bullshit.
anwyay....
A DIGGIN WE WILL GO...
i hit up rasputins in vallejo, and the rasputins and amoeba in berkeley. i bought $60 worth of records. i haven't done that in sooo long. it felt kinda good to be on my own and just go wherever whenever.
i bought a bunch of party ish so i can practice mixing again. here are some of the songs i copped...
oochie wally / all that i can say / ain't no fun / after the party / x / never leave me alone / 1 9 9 9 (common & sadat x, not prince) / jaguar wright / and some beatjunkie shit.
some of these were them bootleg comps. so i also ended up getting some like those fuckin ja rule and j.lo cuts. "im real" and "put it on me." i'm sorry but i am not fond of those fuckin songs... i also ende up with that one mystical song "danger"
someone shoot me.
i had to. after the party was also on there and also X and on no! so fuggit...
i picked up a cd rack at IKEA for luvbug. even though i'm not on speaking terms with corporations the bright yellow glow of the IKEA sign is the flame to my moth. got a $2 clock for myself. contemplated buying some lamps. put them back in a mad dash after i visualized them in my room and was not pleased.
after the vinyl splurging, i went home to the fam and played cribbage with the folks. i was laughin so hard cuz my parents were killin me with their humor. i guess that's where i get it from.
then went over to snayk eyz' house to listen to my records and hear his new ish and watch his performance in the DMC world finals.
Friday, February 01, 2002
i wish it was the type that michael jackson has, but it's good ol fashioned nerves. i have a presentation to do in 7 hours and i'm still writing out my shit.
the content part isn't the problem.
basically, i'm doing a cultural awareness training for my coworkers at Asian Pacific Community Counseling. my employees asked for a training, so i'm hookin' it up.
what i'm a tad bit nervous about is that 1) i'll be going over a ton of Asian American studies theory and history in a 2 hour period. and 2) i have to present this to 1st generation Asian Americans some of whom are flag wavin' new citizens who are proud of this country.
and i'm about to blow their image of america out of the water.
discrimination, marginalization and oppression.
those are not things older folks want to hear. so i have to craft this presentation with them in mind so as to not piss them off.
i've decided to kinda do this "reverse engineering" of sorts and try to explain ethnic studies by first explaining how white people view us.
and then come in with the history, all the -isms and then end with the empowerment shit.
i'll let u know how it goes
