More major than major

Today,I am craving Nasi Lemak, a Singaporean dish that I love. I can't really translate what Nasi Lemak is except to describe that it's coconut rice with fried fish and ikan bilis (tiny mackeral) and agenerous serving of sweekt belachan (hot sauce). Even though SF has so much to offer in terms of asian cuisine, it still can't compare to what we have in Singapore.

I miss Singapore. I don't think I've felt more homesick in the last 8 years. And I'm feeling homesick because I've made a huge decision over the last two weeks to live here forever. Nate and I are getting married.

The first thing my mom said when I told her the news was, "you're never coming home". And while it's true a girl must leave her family to be married, I just never thought it would be such a sad experience. My parents are happy and sad at the same time. At first I thought it ridiculous. But as the days pass, I seem to have taken on their mixed reaction.

My mom keeps reminding me, that I'm no longer a girl but a woman. Just exactly what that means I don't know. But it makes me feel like I can no longer cuddle up with mommy or have her cut my toenails. Ok, maybe she shouldn't be cutting my toenails, but that's always been mommy territory and mommy time. Why I can't still be her little girl and a married woman I don't know. All I know is that I'm feeling rather homesick and rather sad that this cannot be.