AJ is like a sponge
On Monday I picked up AJ from school, like normal... then one of the teachers said:
Earlier today AJ broke down in tears talking about your accident.
Before we walked out the door she encouraged AJ to tell mommy what was making him so scared. While we were in the car (Mio was home sick), I asked him to share with me what he was scared of...
He began crying, and said, I am scared of mommy crashing! I don't want you to crash. I'm scared because of the guns...that was all I could get out of him, but surely was enough to know that I needed to help my baby.
I quickly blamed myself for letting him hear me tell the story of the accident, and most of all, how it was part of a police chase and arrest. I felt tears roll down my face as I drove home. I didn't realize that even though he wasn't in the car when it happened (and I thank God everyday for that blessing), he is still frightened by the accident.
Could he be just as scared about riding in the car as I am? I even asked Damoomoo to change the way he drives, but apparently to no avail... in fact I think I walked away even more angry (that lasted a couple days)...
AJ's reaction is not something I am willing to take lightly or compromise... I am signing us ALL up for a family counseling session, which is a free resource from my work! I think it might be good for me as well... cuz I could still feel myself fearing the freeway, my car, and other cars driving around me. I might actually use that same resource for a free law consultation!
Earlier today AJ broke down in tears talking about your accident.
Before we walked out the door she encouraged AJ to tell mommy what was making him so scared. While we were in the car (Mio was home sick), I asked him to share with me what he was scared of...
He began crying, and said, I am scared of mommy crashing! I don't want you to crash. I'm scared because of the guns...that was all I could get out of him, but surely was enough to know that I needed to help my baby.
I quickly blamed myself for letting him hear me tell the story of the accident, and most of all, how it was part of a police chase and arrest. I felt tears roll down my face as I drove home. I didn't realize that even though he wasn't in the car when it happened (and I thank God everyday for that blessing), he is still frightened by the accident.
Could he be just as scared about riding in the car as I am? I even asked Damoomoo to change the way he drives, but apparently to no avail... in fact I think I walked away even more angry (that lasted a couple days)...
AJ's reaction is not something I am willing to take lightly or compromise... I am signing us ALL up for a family counseling session, which is a free resource from my work! I think it might be good for me as well... cuz I could still feel myself fearing the freeway, my car, and other cars driving around me. I might actually use that same resource for a free law consultation!
I recommend that you do get counseling, for both yu and my godson. I know he's traumatized by it all and he is scared for your sake. He's a very caring and compassionate boy and you shouldn't wait 'til later to address this issue. Good luck and God bless.
Trauma or extreme fears can become ingrained and remembered for the rest of our lives. I almost drowned when I was around 5. I still have issues diving into the water even though I was on varsity swim team to face my fears of the water.
I think you are feeling the right things.
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