Movements
Thank you all so much for your kind reflections on burritos. I know the Silver Bullet has a sacred spot in my heart (as evidenced by my somewhat burrito enhanced cholesterol tests), as it does for so many of you in the world.At any rate, today's lecture's theme is Movements. I know it's Lent, and I'm not that great of a Catholic in the practicing sense, but it's also the beginning of Spring, although I'm pretty convinced this is a farked up way to start the season, don't you? Movements are a great descriptor for what's going on in my life, and I think in general, Spring brings that out for most of us anyway.
Winter has a way of making us more reflective: Christmas brings us reminders of people we love, New Years harkens wishes for the, well, new year, and even Valentine's drives us to thoughts of partnership whether they be permanent, just for now, or hourly. Just kidding on the hourly, don't get bitchy on me. So here we are, supposedly de-thawing (you West Coasters thought the weather was going to change on us for the good didn't you? check outside. it's not that great), and thoughts are already racing towards what's the next big thing.
Haberdashers are feeding us tank tops, shorts, mini skirts, dresses. For us to, at this point in our life, wear under very thick polar fleece jackets. The Gap has put all its heavier jackets on notice! And yes, my preciouses, you can buy all your winter gear now on sale! For those of us in San Francisco, this is all weather gear.
Movements to the mall. Movements to change our exteriors. Here comes the fake bake tan lotions. Here comes bikinis. Here comes booty shaking spring break shows on MTV. And yet it has to shine here at home. I'm a little sad.
Movements to get ready for summer, as if spring is just a warm up to the all-hallowed Summer...I personally can't wait for summer break. this means the world to me, this summer thing. Although I work straight through, it's nice to know that I can at least breathe a little during this time. Movements to get ready for Fall. Did you know that universities are already done with most of the Fall planning? Classes, buildings, lectures, etc. Done. We can start looking for things to do in next spring...But wait, we haven't even gotten to the second week of this one! Oh well.
With Lent, movements to withhold or refrain, as this is the time when we force ourselves into pseudo fasts (no meat on Fridays, pshaw) and pseudo reflective states (I promise to not eat ice cream...) just so we can be a more reflective person. As if not eating mint chocolate chip will make us better people? Go figure. People withhold but often don't know why. No cookies. No reflection. Kinda useless, but a very Catholic approach to life. If I tell people that I've given something up, I won't feel left out. I do it just because. Nah, doesn't fly.
I never make it a point to give something up. My spirit is a little too weak to say no to ice cream or anything of substance. But this time, I've made it a point to face my demons. All those things about me that I totally hate. And no, I'm not telling any of you what those things are. One did involve minor surgery on a comedic level, but that story I'll save for another day.
So here I am, doing the whole movement thing. It's certainly been difficult, but it's forced me to be whole for once rather than trying to separate pieces into different compartments to make sense of it all. I use that with clients often - it's easier to see things as separate entities rather than to see how all of them are connected, and the truth is, it's all connected. Maybe it's because I just saw I (heart) Huckabees, and that movie cracks me up (Mango just likes the forest sex scene), but yes, we are all under the same blanket, and once we figure that out, the rest of it makes complete sense.
Am I all the better for it? For one thing, it's interesting to see yourself as human for a change. Perfection is for those who love to hide their dirty laundry, and in the process of doing my own laundry, so to speak, I found my own kind of flawed perfection that I can live with. All that talk about movements to find out I've been going around myself in circles.
So that was my revelation. What was yours?
Voodoo
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