phew!

I got out of my date with Alex. Phew. He was weirded out by me and rightfully so. I was all enthusiastic last week and this week, I just was like a cold fish. Right now, I just feel relieved. There's nothing wrong with Alex, I just don't feel it's right. Probably the same way Eddie felt about me. Reminds me of a line from the movie Before Sunrise- that when someone breaks up with you, you think they're going through the same shit but really they're not cos when you break up with someone else, you realize how litte you think of that person and just how relieved you are that things aren't the way that they used to be. I'm paraphrasing of course, but I think it's totally true.