The Big Aiyah

::she inspires
The cold wet winds of 2004 blew in an enigma from the past. She landed with usual aplomb; flip comments, intrusive questioning, and engaging conversation; as if the gap between the last interaction have only been a couple days, not a couple of years.

I’d have to say she was the one girl who won me over. Not by her physical attractiveness, nor the credentials on her resume that makes parents say, “see THAT'S a good girl.” She had that intangible that made you want to listen to any subject that caught her fancy, and speak your dreams that you've never uttered to another soul. If someone was to ask me to list all the traits that I want for a soul mate/life partner; her qualities make her the closest any woman I've ever met.

For heaven's sake, I can say she is my muse, the one person who constantly brings me the spark of creativity and courage to strive for those dreams I've hidden even from myself.

::sweet november
So, if this girl is sooo great and on paper she's Aced the test, then why don't I feel the attraction and urge to be with her? Why do I feel that I'm not the only guy she's put this spell on? And why does that bother me?

Okay, I admit to have watched the movie, "Sweet November" with Charlize Theron and I feel like I'm Mr. January. She cares for me (I know that much) and so do I, but it doesn't go beyond that. We are physically attracted to each other, but.....?

It's like I'm Jerry Seinfeld, she's Ellain Benis! Now, if only a Terry Hatcher would pop into my social life (like that one Seinfeld episode), I swear, I wouldn't doubt nor question whether they were real or fake.

posted by evil rat @ 11:16 PM