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Tuesday, June 17, 2003

Ok well I hope you guys are not getting sick of me posting. But I haven't posted in a while so...the saga continues with this ukulele man I met at the cafe...

I BLEW IT
A few weeks ago, I hadn't intended to go to uke night at the cafe, but...ukulele man asked me to go. So, I showed up late after my radio show. Everything was going great. After the uke session, we sat at one of the tables and talked a little bit. (I hope it didn't show, but I had butterflies the entire time!) So we talked about a lot of stuff...it was nice. We ended up walking out of the cafe together. As we stood outside the cafe door, he asks, "hey, what are you gonna do now?"

"Go home," I replied, being that it was already almost 10pm.

"Would you like to come out to dinner with me and my friend visiting from LA?," he asks.

"Sure," I replied.

So we went on to discuss where him and his friends wanted to go. And he gave me his number, which I THOUGHT I saved into my phone.

The last thing he says to me when we part from the front of the cafe is, "okay, call me if you want to go."

Since I knew they were going to eat somewhere near my house, I drove home, brought my things inside and went to call ukulele man. As I opened my flip phone and looked down at the display, I gasped in horror. My heart almost simultaneously stopped as my chest tightened at the realization that I did not SAVE his phone number when I put his information into my phone. AAAaaaahhhhh! Those darn flip phones! In all my nervous excitement, I retraced my steps in my mind and saw myself just closing the cover instead of saving his number. Then, the last thing he said to me kept ringing in my ear, "okay, call me if you want to go"... "call me if you want to go"..."call me if you want to go"...."call me if you want to go".....aaahhhhh

The sad thing was, there was no other way for me to get a hold of him. I blew it.

After an hour or two...I finally calmed down and accepted the fact that there was nothing I could do about the situation short of going to every restaurant/diner on Geary to look for them. But, I thought that would by psychotic.

The next day, I ended up emailing him the following morning. I just didn't want ukulele man thinking I was so rude to not call and let him know if I was or was not coming or that I was a flake OR that I just didn't want to go - which we all know was not the case.

I got an email reply back later that morning from him. Whew...to my relief, although I still think I blew it, admitted that he forgot to get my cell number so he can call me. I still felt like I blew it though.

NO EXPECTATIONS w/ a glimmer of hope
So I'm trying to keep myself grounded through all this. I almost expect that we're going to be just "pals" which is good. Another friend is always a plus. But a boyfriend would be nice too. A few weeks have past since the night I blew it and he still IMs me and has planned to go to some of the same events in the near future. He's even gonna come on my radio show at the end of the month. And out of the blue, last night he asked - almost told me he's gonna take me out to dinner after that show. I couldn't help but giggle with unexpected joy when he asked me because we had already said good bye and parted ways when he turned around to ask me.

"OH and on the 30th..." he called across the street for my attention.

I stood in the middle of the street thinking he was going to ask me something else about the show as he paused.

"Ya?" I replied to him as he stood on the corner.

"after the show..let's go out to eat. I'm taking you out to dinner" he continues.

I catch myself giggling and realized I didn't answer. With a smile on my face (trying to still stay composed), "Sure, just call me tomorrow."

So today, he's stressing over a report he has to put together and finish today. In the back of my mind I still wonder if he's gonna be the future prince ukulele. But for now, getting to know him is just fine with me.