They say that denial is a bad thing and that if one were cured of all hangups, and had no more emotional baggage, one would be able to face reality and deal with the truth.
I beg to differ.
Some things your head and your heart simply cannot deal with. You know what I mean. You just can't deal with it. You don't lunge head first into the pain, or you don't make yourself feel even more pain. You just rationally wouldn't even do it. So why should emotions be any different? I choose to suppress all memories, all feelings, any nostalgic what ifs. I rationally choose to place myself in denial.
Feel nauseated at self, at my lack of strength, my multiple flaws, my inability to walk away.
Cannot, am not, and will not give in to this. WIll accept any mode or form or advice for denial.