And so the new year begins with terrible horrible thoughts.

Am scared out of my wits that I will be denied a visa back. Not a very good beginning to the new year. But hopefully, all will be well in 24 hours. I will know my fate in 24 hours. I don't know which is worse. Hearing bad news, or hearing no news.

From stuffing myself silly, I cannot even bear to eat now. Very very very stressed.

This has been a really really strange year. Just want 2003 to behave in calm manner... Sorry we are getting off on the wrong foot, but will you please see to it that the rest of the year is ok? No more drama in 2003 ok? No more.

And please please get me back to SF.
Thank you.