I stayed home today. My boss gave me the day off, and I took it. It was really good, cos it's just nice to stay home sometimes and spend time on your own. I spent the day finishing up my math test due tomorrow. It was really hard, but completely satisfying.

I was reading my earlier entry on things I learned since I've been single, and thought I wanted to say something more about it. I think what I've learned most about being on my own is that I'm an idealist, and that nothing will satisfy me until I've reached that ideal. Basically I want it all. I don't want to be miserable, I don't just want to be satisfied, I don't want to compromise what I want just because something didn't work out before, or people tell me that it's not possible.

In other words, he has to be perfect, in all the ways I imagined him to be. I chase dreams and feelings. I've done that my whole life. When I've stopped chasing, or switched courses for whatever stupid reason, I've always ended up invariably unsatisfied and unhappy.

gotta listen to yourself.

that would be #11.